NEW YEAR 2025

For Starters:

What is life if not making lots of mistakes, and learning how to take it on the chin with a smile? 

Life in a new city, a horrific breakup, a new job, and in my early 20’s what could possibly go wrong from here? Realistically everything, but in my opinion (and delusion); absolutely nothing. 

My sister and I have had an ongoing joke of ‘rules’ to live by for about 7 years now. It is a joke, but in some ways also real lessons, ways we can lightly hold each other accountable, or just have a good giggle at the stupid shit we do. New Year 2025 it became much more focused on forcing ourselves, really me, to be better and enjoy life. 

The rules became a way for me to justify my existence, and declare war on myself. Use as an excuse, get comfortable breaking them, learn how I can always be the best I possibly can, and learn that I am never exactly that. 

So, here’s the rules: 

1. Grow Up
2. Stop being a cock rider. 
3. Have some goddamn self respect… at least for the year. 
4. You’ll have to find a reason. 
5. It’s okay to do whatever you want.
6. Tequila is an upper.
7. Have Fun.

Grow Up. That’s obvious. I’m an adult, you’re an adult… grow up. 

No cock riding. There’s a lot of reasons for this rule to exist. Majorly meaning to not fawn over people and do absolutely anything they want with no consideration for self because why the hell would I be doing that… and then of course a slightly more literal take; don’t go pleasing men for no reason. 

Have some respect… yeah. 

Let’s just say I haven’t been the most kind to myself, or required others to have any respect for me at all in a long while. Stomped on would still be considered a nice way to put it, so it’s time to change that up.  

Finding a reason has been a large part of moving forward. A reason to do anything. Mostly a reason to enjoy myself, which has led to a large self discovery of things. Apparently I haven’t thought about doing anything I actually enjoy in 3 or 4 years. Getting wine drunk at home by myself and dancing in my favorite dress, simply because I can, so I should because I love those nights. Choosing to go out when im tired because 

Doing whatever I want. That’s not so much a ~do WHATEVER you want!~ No consequences, carelessness attitude. It’s more of a reminder, you actually can do what you want to. 

You can send that late night text, you can go into that shop to get a psychic reading for fun, you can buy that soda that looks interesting but could be absolutely disgusting. You can do those things and no one is stopping you except yourself! 

Fuck anxiety, fuck rejection, there is no harm in just doing it, so… do it. 

How do you then deal with the consequences? I don’t know, haven’t had to yet.

Tequila is an upper. 

Do you remember the things you did when you were drunk on tequila? Me neither, but when I get told about it later I sure as hell wish I was never told, hence the reminder, (please note how this is not a ‘I wish I never drank tequila’ story, just a cautious reminder of unserious mishappenings.)

This rule has also been on the board since the OG list was written in our shared shitty apartment above a crack corner downtown in 2018, it is very important. 

And SO; 

What a disaster, here’s to new beginnings.

The 2025th year started off strong, standing on a bridge watching fireworks and a vow to not take anything too seriously… holding hands with a man 7 years my senior and later blacking out (thanks tequila.)